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Post by *Johnny Walker on May 6, 2009 18:50:01 GMT -8
I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirl When I looked up from my eyelashes I could see that Lilly's eyes were closed. I don't know if a part of me was scared that she would love it or hate it. This song meant the world to me, even though I just wrote it....But still, it was almost the story of my life. Well, actually I guess it was. I finished the song happily. I was surprsied how well it turned out. I didn't think it would sound that good! I wanted so badly to play again for Brittney but when Lilly said I should take a break, I knew she wanted to talk to me. "Maybe later Britty." I leaned my guitar against the wall and went outside in the hallway. I didn't know where her parents were and I hoped I wouldn't see them. It was still awckward seeing them. I heard the comment Britt made and I smiled and chuckled. I stopped quickly when Lilly came out. For the moment of truth...Drum roll please..."Whats up?" Tag: Lilly Dakota Music: Tonight I Love You by The Latency Other: I REALLY love this song ^^
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Post by *Lilly Ann on May 6, 2009 19:05:02 GMT -8
Mondays I sleep awayTuesdays I lay awakeWednesdays are the worstThursdays I reminiceFridays I see your faceAnd I can breathe Stepping out in the hall and closing the door after Johnny, if a fight was to brake out between us Brittney was to know nothing about it. I kinda just stared at him for a moment wanting to tell him how beautiful the song was and how I hoped it was for me. " What was that?" I asked so quietly I barely heard myself. My eyes slowly sliding towards the floor I couldnt help but somewhat correct myself. " No, no, no, Why that?" I asked pain and anger dripping off each word. " What are you trying to do Johnny?" I asked now quiet and emotionless again. What was he trying to do? Cause all he seemed to be doing in my mind was making today more painful then it had to be. Sometimes I wished I could just come out and tell him to getting out of my life but I knew I couldn’t because of Brittney and other times I wished I could just tell him everything… Right now was one of those moments. Tag: Johnny Walker Music: Drive My Soul by Lights Other: never heard it.. might have to look it up =]
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Post by *Johnny Walker on May 6, 2009 19:14:08 GMT -8
I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirl"That was-" She corrected herself before I could even finish my sentence. I was confused. It was a bad idea to play the song. Why did I have to? I wanted to turn to my right and bang my head on the wall. Hopefully, killing myself so I could avoide the subject. Guess what? It wasn't...Lilly stared at me, waiting for my answer now. I racked my brain for something to say. I could say a bunch of sappy stuff, but no instead I shurgged. That was it. A shrug. Can't get any lamer than that. Tag: Lilly Dakota Music: Tonight I Love You by The Latency Other: Srry so small >_<
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Post by *Lilly Ann on May 6, 2009 19:35:58 GMT -8
Mondays I sleep awayTuesdays I lay awakeWednesdays are the worstThursdays I reminiceFridays I see your faceAnd I can breathe I felt like I wanted to scream! A shrug... I asked an important question that I was dieing for an answer too and he shrugs. " Im serious Johnny! What the fuck are you trying to do to me?!" I almost screamed but tryed to keep it quiet because of Brittney. I wanted an answer and I wanted one now. I was tired of not knowing things and I was tired of things happening between us and not knowing what they were supost to mean. Glaring straight into his eyes I knew if he shrugged or didnt answer my question I was gonna freak.. and I wouldnt be the one getting hurt in the end. My hands were slowly sliding in and out of fists at my sides as I took slow deep breaths through my nose trying to calm myself while I waited for his answer. Tag: Johnny Walker Music: Ice Cream by New Young Pony Club Other: Tis ok, mine is no better
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Post by *Johnny Walker on May 6, 2009 19:55:16 GMT -8
I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirl"It's just a song.." I lied. It wasn't just a song. It meant a lot. I knew if I didn't say more Lilly would just get more and more angrey with me. Which wouldn't be surprising. But I knew I didnt want her mad me. Shocker aint it? "Ok, thats not exactly true..." I sighed "I don't know how to put it. I thought the song, wrote the song, played the song. I mean, are you asking me what its about? Cause obviously I wrote it about something..." I trailed off. "You know, you look mad. Maybe I should just go say bye to Brittney and I'll maybe see you later? Yes? No? Hoping for yes?" Yeah, sometimes I just go on and on. Like now for instance. Hee hee.... Tag: Lilly Dakota Music: Tonight I Love You by The Latency Other: Well, yours was better then me lol.
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Post by *Lilly Ann on May 6, 2009 20:15:00 GMT -8
Mondays I sleep awayTuesdays I lay awakeWednesdays are the worstThursdays I reminiceFridays I see your faceAnd I can breathe I just sorta stared at him not knowing what to say. Was he trying to get me to kill him? Cause I was seconds from doing exactly that. 'I know how you writing a freaking song!' I wanted to scream in his face before he asked if he should just say goodbye to Brittney now and leave. My thoughts came speeding back to Brittney and my eyes snapped over to the door beside us that lead into her playroom. " Brittney" I wispered under my breath before opening the door quickly to see Brittney standing afew feet away from the door with her beautiful innocent brown eyes staring back at me. It was ovious she heard our short but horrible fight when her bottom lip started to tremble. Running over to her quickly, I kneed down on the ground holding her in a hug as her small crys filled the room. Now I was really close to killing Johnny... Tag: Johnny Walker Music: Witch Doctoer by The Cartoons Other: Not really..
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Post by *Johnny Walker on May 6, 2009 20:23:21 GMT -8
I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirlI sighed. Wrong thing to say. When I heard Brittney escape through Lilly's lips I tured to see Britty standing their, her small bottom lip trembling. Lilly rushed over and I stood their. What was I suppose to do? I didn't know if Lil would push my away or not. I walked over towards Britty. "Its OK Brit. Sometimes people have disscusions that they agree on and sometimes don't." I could comfort her becuase Lilly was hugging her veyr tightly. It was like she didn't want me to touch Brit. I felt sort of offended aobut that. She was my child just as much as she was hers. I mean, I know I didn't stay with them, and I was stupid about that but she was still my daughter. And I sill loved her. Both of them. Tag: Lilly Dakota Music: Tonight I Love You by The Latency Other: Yea really lol I cant wait till the26th
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Post by *Lilly Ann on May 6, 2009 20:31:38 GMT -8
Mondays I sleep awayTuesdays I lay awakeWednesdays are the worstThursdays I reminiceFridays I see your faceAnd I can breathe I felt as if I was a shield around Brittney, protecting her from him. In my eyes he had hurt her enough now and she was gonna be hurt more when I told her the truth about me and Johnny. I still didnt want to tell her but I knew it was for the best.. she had to know before it hurt her more. I could hear Johnny speaking behind me over Brittney's soft crys into my shoulder. I wanted to tell him to just leave but maybe just this once I needed him to help me. I needed him to help me tell her, I couldnt do it on my own. Carefully picking Brittney up, her arms still tightly wrapped around my neck, I walked over to the couch in the corner and sat down while giving Johnny a nod in sucha way to tell him to come sit beside me. Tag: Johnny Walker Music: Seventeen Forever by Metro Station Other:
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Post by *Johnny Walker on May 6, 2009 20:36:17 GMT -8
I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirlI sighed and knew what was coming. We had to tell her. I nodded back and sat beside her. I knew what she was thinking right now. Ten bucks says she wants me outta her house. I was feeling like I wanted to run outta her house. I was scared what might happen to Britty. I didn't want her to cry even more or cry all the time or whatever might happen. She was always a happy kid and I didn't want what we were about to tell her to affect that happieness. "So..You wanna start?" I asked Lilly hoping she would take it away from there. There was an errie silent moment and I sighed. I think she was preparing herself. No quite sure. Either that, or I wasn't hearing because I was so damn freaked! Tag: Lilly Dakota Music: Tonight I Love You by The Latency Other: Ceral posting man!!!
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Post by *Lilly Ann on May 6, 2009 21:31:59 GMT -8
Mondays I sleep awayTuesdays I lay awakeWednesdays are the worstThursdays I reminiceFridays I see your faceAnd I can breathe I couldnt believe he was making me start! It was bad enough already that I was finaly giving in to telling her but me starting the conversation that would probably break her heart for the rest of her life! ..I didnt know what to say, I just sorta sat there holding Brittney on my lap staring down at her tear streaked face. Openning my mouth I was going to just come straight out with it but nothing came out, my mouth just dropped shut again. Looking over at Johnny with confustion and pain in my eyes. I would give anything at that moment to make him tell her or for us to not tell her at all. Tag: Johnny Walker Music: Uhh Eeh Uh Ah Ah Ting Tang Walla Walla Bing Bang - The Cartoons Other: Horrible post o.0 so so sorry.. i have no muse.. it ran away..
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Post by *Johnny Walker on May 11, 2009 19:10:55 GMT -8
I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirlI sighed when I saw the look in Lilly's eye. She did not want to start. But did that I mean I had too? She was around her more. Lifes not fair I guess. Who ever came up with that metephor sucked....I mean, life can be fair. Not all the time. Actually, almost never, but still! It could be fair every now and then. Right? See how lame I am? I am debating over a metephor in my head....Im getting crazier by the second. I opended my mouth to say something but nothing came. I didn't know what to say at all! It was like I wanted to say something but my mouth knew it wasn't the right thing. No matter what I said someone would be unhappy or angrey. If I said that Lilly and I weren't actually together, she would cry. If I just dropped it, I knew Lilly might get mad at me. I seriously wanted to bang my head on the wall! Tag: Lilly Dakota Music: Situations by Escape The Fate Other: I have to watch "The Move" number "2" tomorrow....
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Post by *Lilly Ann on May 11, 2009 19:50:11 GMT -8
Mondays I sleep awayTuesdays I lay awakeWednesdays are the worstThursdays I reminiceFridays I see your faceAnd I can breathe Seeing Johnny fail for words I knew it was right back to me telling the truth. Taking a small deep breath to calm myself, I tryed to put together what I was going to say in my head. Finaly thinking of somthing that might work - and I mean underline the might - I turned Brittney in my lap so she was looking up at me. The sight of her tear streaked cheers and the innocent pain in her eyes was enough to kill me but I knew I had to do this, it was the best for her to know. " Brittney.." I started quietly, my eyes slightly starting to water. " Me and Daddy havnt been truthful to you and I think it might be time that you know the truth" I said my voice slightly cracking. Brittney just sat there on my lap staring at me with her heartbroken eyes.. I couldnt even imagain what she would look like when I told her. " Me and daddy.. well.." I diffed off not knowing how I should say it. Me and daddy dont love each other, me and daddy arent together anymore.. no matter how I put it I knew it was gonna hurt her. " Were not exactly in love anymore hun" I said pain filling my words. I looked down at the floor not wanting to take in her reaction. I could hear the trembling of her lips and her nose sniffling, I knew the tears would already be rolling down her cheeks but I couldnt move to wipe them away... I was just as hurt as she was right now. Tag: Johnny Walker Music: Dare 4 Distance by Never Shout Never Other: ...? whats that? or do i even wanna know? ....
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Post by *Johnny Walker on May 11, 2009 20:00:00 GMT -8
I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirlI could tell how much it hurt Lil to say the words, but just hearing them for myself hurt me. I knew no matter how much I hurted, Brittney was hurting more. I could tell. I took Brit in my arms because Lil was to upset herself. Finally Brittney's crys became louder as she processed what was really happening. "Shh. Its OK Brit." I said softly hoping my words were helping her. "This isnt your fault and we both still love you." I whispered to her so quitely that only really Brit could hear. It wasn't that I didn't want Lilly to hear, it was that I wanted to talk to Brit myself. I hugged her more tightly, but not to tight to hurt her. I felt like crying myself! It was like the past was glooming over me at this minute. Everything seemed to flash by my eyes. I didn't want to see that past because I knew I screwed up big time. Tag: Lilly Dakota Music: Situations by Escape The Fate Other: You probably dont....
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Post by *Lilly Ann on May 11, 2009 20:50:55 GMT -8
Mondays I sleep awayTuesdays I lay awakeWednesdays are the worstThursdays I reminiceFridays I see your faceAnd I can breathe The tears started to stream down my cheeks. I couldnt believe I finaly told Brittney the truth after 3 years... and I couldnt believe it hurt me so much to say it. I could feel Johnny pull Brittney off my lap and I couldnt even move to stop him... I didnt want to stop him. I knew I couldnt comfort her so he might as well. I could hear him softly wispering to her behind her loud crys that now filled the room. I was just about to lean over and hug her and agree with Johnny when the door opened and two very mad looking parents came in. Oviously this moment didnt look quite good to them. Brittney in Johnny's arms crying and me on the other side of the couch crying. I knew what was coming next.. angry parents yelling at innocent teen while child and other heartbroken teen crys on couch. I quickly thought of things I could do to stop that. I mean as much as I did hate Johnny I did also love him and I hated seeing my parents beinging mean to him. Tag: Johnny Walker Music: Rocketship by Shiney Toy Guns Other: what i thought..
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Post by *Johnny Walker on May 11, 2009 20:56:39 GMT -8
I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirlI stopped rocking Brit when the door opened. I was never good talking with parents, so when Lilly's parents barged in mad, I think I paniced....I didn't do anything really, Just you know, my heart stopped! No matter what I was always afraid of Lilly's parents. Ever since freshmen year... "Hello..." I said still freaked. I didn't want to go. I didn't want to leave Brittney here crying. I didn't want to leave Lilly here crying. Something was telling me I would have to. Her parents stodd there. They didn't return my greeting. They stood there waiting for an explanation. I wasn't going to give it to them. I loved Lilly and Brittney both but I was still just a teenager and mad parents freaked me out! Tag: Lilly Dakota Music: Situations by Escape The Fate Other: You know how you watch the puberity movie? Think what #2 would be.... lol
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