Friday Greetings

[*Lilly Ann]

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

Today was the day, it was Friday. School was ending for the weekend and that ment only one thing. Johnny. Because Johnny is the father of Brittney he wants she her.. just not suport me and her in any way really. Maybe someone else would look at this differently but thats how I see it and thats how I'm always gonna see it. Anyways, every Friday after school Johnny comes over and hangs out with Brittney for the rest of the afternoon. For Brittney its fun and she gets to hang out with her father, for me its just painful and heat breaking. Even though Johnny left me when I told him about Brittney I still have love for him.

The final school bell rang and I sighed. "Let the pain begin" I mumbled to myself as I slid my books into my bag. I walked out into the hall and down to my locker to grab the rest of my stuff. Slamming it shut when I was done I turned around and headed towards the main doors of the school. I was supost to meet Johnny by the bus in five minutes but knowing him I knew he was probably already waiting for me now.

Tag: Johnny Walker
Music: Dare4Distance - NeverShoutNever
Other: DUN DUN DUNNN

[*Johnny Walker]

I'm in trouble
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this girl
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl

Friday. One of the best and worst days ever. The best day because I get to see my beautiful child (still weird to say) and of course Lilly, the girl I still love but was an idiot and said I didn't. Worst day because of the awkwardness between Lilly and I. The dismissal bell rang and I all but ran down the halls to get my stuff. I always waited for Lilly at the bus. Of course I was always there before her. I opened my locker taking out my science book to study and grabbing my guitar that just fit inside my full locker. I held it by my side as I walked down the halls. Nerves filling my body. Why am I nervous to see the mother of our kid? Oh yeah, I'm only a junior for Pete's sake! You would be nervous too if you were in my shoes. I waited, tense as always. Finally Lilly came out of the school. Her beautiful bleach blonde hair, which she dyed for some reason, was laying down. "Hey..." I mumbled awkwardly.

Tag: Lilly Dakota
Music: Dare4Distance by NevershoutNever
Other: You bet!! lol

[*Lilly Ann]

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

Closing my eyes and taking a deep breath when I got to the main doors, I always felt dizzy and nervous around Johnny but I had no choice, Brittney liked seeing John and John liked seeing Brittney. Opening up my eyes finaly I pushed up the doors and walked out, my head already starting to spin just thinking about what the rest of the day held for me. Looking up from the ground I saw Johnny standing by the bus staring across the front of the school.. at me. My eyes snapped back down to the ground and I walked towards him trying my hardest not to look back up at him. Stopping beside him waiting for the bus' doors to open I heard his voice flout past me, I always felt like I was in a bliss when I heard it. Nodding to him ,refuseing to speak to him, I thanked god that the bus doors opened so we wouldnt have to acutaly speak to each other. I quickly got into the bus and headed straight to the back and slid into the back seat in the corner. No one except Maggie would ever sit back here with me but she usealy got a ride home. Dropping my bag at my feet I looked up to see Johnny coming towards me and I closed my eyes tightly hoping he wasnt coming to sit beside me.

Tag: Johnny Walker
Music: Dare4Distance by NevershoutNever
Other: lol

[*Johnny Walker]

I'm in trouble
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this girl
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl

Lilly was staring at the ground when she walked out. For some reason when she looked up she sorta shyed away and looked back down. I shurgged it off. She nodded to greet my silently. I sighed and went in the bus after her. Normally I would sit away from Lilly due to acwkwardness, but for some reason I decided to sit by her. I think she was freaked out or uncomfortable. I don't know which. "So..Whats new?" I asked trying to bring up conversation. I was hoping she would talk to me. It had been forever since I heard her happy sing song voice. Somthing was telling me it wouldn't be very happy...I wanted to blurt out that I was sorry and I shouldn't have done what I did and that I still loved her but I made sure I didnt. No need to make it more awckward.

Tag: Lilly Dakota
Music: Dare4Distance
Other: Cant wait for the REAL drama to come in!!

[*Lilly Ann]

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

Of coarse its like this world is out to get me and it has to do the one thing I dont want to happen, this evil world makes Johnny sit beside me. I dont know what the hell he was thinking because he always sat away from me but maybe just maybe he had a death wish today. Not like I was gonna kill him but my words can deffently kill a cheerful soul. Staring out the window beside me, I slowly looked over at John when I heard his voice behind me. He was acutaly trying to bring up conversation. I tryed my hardest not to say it but it just sorta.. slipped out I guess. "Why are you acutaly speaking to me?" I asked quietly, pain slightly showing in my words. I didnt mean it to sound as mean as it came out but I mean it was sorta how I felt inside so it just sorta came out like that, as for the pain you could hear in my words.. I hoped to god he didnt hear it. My eyes went back to the window and everything outside was a blur of movement. 'ten minutes and you'll be home, then you can cry.. just dont cry infront of him' my thoughts reminded me. I closed my eyes tightly trying not to let a single tear escape but slowly one made its way quietly down my cheek. This afternoon was going to be more painfuler then I thought.

Tag: Johnny Walker
Music: Dare4Distance
Other: Same!!

[*Johnny Walker]

I'm in trouble
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this girl
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl

I was shoked by her words. Did she hate me that much? "I uhm..." I saw s small tear streak down her face. It made me want to cry. Also write a song.....No. thats not important. I just wish I could comfort her like I used to. But why add more awckwardness? How many times have I thought of that word? Must be over a billion. Wow, I am nervous. "I was just trying to be nice. I know we dont get along any more..I'll just go sit somewhere else." I said pain sliding out with the words. I got my stuff together and grabbed my guitar. I didnt want to leave but I did because this part was saying 'write the song, write the song!'. Sometimes I just wanna kill that thing called your concious. I started to get up.

Tag: Lilly Dakota
Music: Dare4Distance by NevershoutNever
Other: I wonder what'll be like! lolza.

[*Lilly Ann]

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

Another tear joined the first and another one joined the second. I closed my eyes tightly again trying to make them stop but they continued to silently fall down my pale pink cheeks. Hearing Johnny's words full of pain made me almost choke on my tears. I didnt mean to hurt him even though I was mad at him. Why couldnt my mind choose how the hell I felt about him?! I hate him but I love him... why did it have to be so confusing. I slightly looked over at Johnny to see him gather up his stuff. I felt sorta like he was leaving all over again. All of me wanted to jump up and grab him and tell him everything, how I truly felt and that I wanted to try and fix things but I knew I couldnt.. not now... maybe not ever. I turned back to the window not wanting to watch him leave. Everything outside was still in a blur of movment and now also in a blur of tears that covered my eyes.

Tag: Johnny Walker
Music: Stand In The Rain by Superchick
Other: I dont know but its getting sappy right now..

[*Johnny Walker]

I'm in trouble
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this girl
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl

A part of me was hoping she would stop me from switching seats. But she didn't. "I'll wait for you outside of the bus when it stops." I said. I sat in the front seat, looking at Lilly before sitting down and taking out a notebook. I was going to write my song. My consious got the better of me. Plus, its a habit! I pulled out a pen and started writing/thinking. I hummed a tune which I could hopfully play on guitar. Just then I thought of that moment on the back of the bus with Lilly and everything before that. The words just started to flow. Before I knew it a song was born, and we were at the bus stop to Lilly's house. I got out and waited for her like I promised by the stop.

Tag: Lilly Dakota
Music: Overtheyears by Nevershoutnever
Other: It kinda is....Oh wellza lol

[*Lilly Ann]

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

I slightly nodded in an answer to Johnny then I heard his footsteps as he went to another seat. He was gone.. for now. My tears continued to fall as I watched out the window. 'Why did all of this have to happen? No no no How did this all happen? Did the world truely hate me that much?' Thousands of questions ran through my head but I couldnt answer one of them. Slowly my tears came to a stop and I wiped my cheeks dry. We were almost at my house so I grabbed up my bag from by my feet and checked my face in my small makeup mirror. 'Thank god for waterproof eyeliner' I thought to myself before I shoved the small mirror back in my bag and got up. The bus came to a stop and the school bus driver called out mine and and bunch of other adresses. I slowly made my way out of the bus and over to John and past him walking towards my house. "Brittney will be waiting for us with my father at the end of the driveway and my father will want to get back to writing so hurry up" I called back to Johnny emotionless as I walked along the side of the road.

Tag: Johnny Walker
Music: Stand In The Rain by Superchick
Other: lol oh well!

[*Johnny Walker]

I'm in trouble
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this girl
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl

Lilly walked passed me and towards her house. "Yeah, right." I murmered trailing behind her. Her parents did not like me. Or at least it seemed like it... No no, they hated me. I followed Lilly to her drive way. "Mr. Ann." I said nodding towards him as a greeting. I swear one day he'll write about the shnanagin Lilly and I got into and he won't even notice.....It would be nice to hear a life story of it though...Mr. Ann left and I saw the beautiful Britteny waiting in his place. "Hey Britt!" I said giving her a hug. She returned one back and a sloppy kiss on the cheek. "What have you been up too?" I asked. I looked up and Lilly. It was hard to read her face so I looked back at my daughter.

Tag: Lilly Dakota
Music: You and Me by Lifehouse
Other: Dont ask how I got this song ^ stuck in my head...lol

[*Lilly Ann]

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

I didnt really care if Johnny picked up his pace or not.. seeing my father snap at him for being lazy would be nice right about now. I walked up to the gate of my driveway and it was already open with my father and Brittney standing in the middle of the driveway. "Hi Dad" I said quietly to him as I walked up to him and gave him a small hug. "Hi Brittney" I said a small smile on my face as I leaned down and hugged her tightly. "Hi Mommy" she said quickly before she kissed my cheek then ran over to where my father and Johnny was. My father just kinda stared at Johnny then shook his head slightly and walked up the path to his writing hut he liked to call it but really he just put a chair and a desk in the shed. Why? Because hes just weird like that and really its the only place to get away from Brittney. Brittney ran up to Johnny and hugged him tightly while placing a kiss on his cheek. "Daddy! she said cheerfully. I forced myself to look away before I started to cry.. again. "I drew a picture! Grandma even put it up on the wall in my playroom! Come see with me and mommy!" She said practicly jumping up and down in excitment. Holding on to Johnny's hand she walked over to me and grabbed my hand with her other hand and lead us both up towards the house.

Tag: Johnny Walker
Music: Stand In The Rain by Superchick
Other: haha now i want to listen to it!!

[*Johnny Walker]

I'm in trouble
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this girl
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl

"A picture? A picture of what?" I asked just before she grabbed my hand and then Lilly's. Now that I thought about it should have been like this all the time....I closed my eyes then opened them fast to get rid of the thought. Its not that I didnt want it to be like this all the time, it was that I was afraid. Of course I could admit that but I was deffienatly afraid. We walked into her playroom which was always different each dayI came here. She dragged me over to the picture she had drew. I stared at it a little shocked. There in crayon on a white peice of paper was three stick people in front of a stick house with arrows pointing to each one. The tall one said dad, the medium one said mom, and the shortest one said me. "Its awesome!" I said after clearing my thorat.

Tag: Lilly Dakota
Music: You and Me by Lifehouse
Other: ^_^ Im so smrt!!! Britt is like adorable! Thought I should mention that...Oh crap, thats not very manly...lol

[*Lilly Ann]

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

I followed Brittney up to the house trying my hardest not to look at Johnny. When we came into the house I helped her take off her shoes and she helped me put my school bag up on the table beside the door. We said our thank yous to each other then both me and Johnny followed Brittney upstairs into her playroom. When she showed us the picture on the wall I knew Johnny was shocked cause I sure was. "Um.." I started not knowing what to say. "Welllllll? Do you like it?" Brittney asked sounding very proud of herself. I looked over at Johnny after hearing what he said then nodded. "Its beautiful Brit! Your getting so good with your spelling and writing!" I said smiling over at her. A small squeel left her lips before she ran over and wrapped her arms around one of mine and one of Johnny's legs holding them in a tight hug. "I knew you would like it! I knew you would!" she said cheerfully.

Tag: Johnny Walker
Music: Stand In The Rain by Superchick
Other: Brittney to waaaaay to cute man =] lol what were you gonna say?

[*Johnny Walker]

I'm in trouble
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to this girl
She's got my heart tied in a knot
And my stomach in a whirl

I looked at Lilly trying to tell her to compliment it. It was actually very good for a three year old. Her spelling was practically perfect. Brittney put her arm around our legs and pulled us into a weird hug. "What do you want to do now?" I asked ignoreing her comment. Not trying to be mean but to avoid ackwardness. "Whats that?" Britt pointed to my guitar. I smiled. "That would be my guitar." She gave me a puzzled look. I walked over and took it out of its case and strummed a chord. Then I couldn't help it. I started to sing/play the song I had written on the bus.



Tag: Lilly Dakota
Music: Overtheyears by NevershoutNever
Other: Nvm..I was say that I had to mentoin that she was cute. And that made no sences...Nvm...anyways Im supose to be a dude and saying adorable isnt very dude like...

[*Lilly Ann]

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

I couldnt help but slightly frown when Brittney pointed out Johnny guitar. Oviously now that she pointed it out he was gonna play. As soon as he started playing I knew it was somthing he had writen from the way it sounded and I had never heard anything like it before. I closed my eyes and let it all flow withen me just like when it was me and Johnny and he would play for me out in the forest in the bacyard. I never wanted this moment to end, it seemed almost perfect.. until I noticed the lyrics. I stared at Johnny in shock, pain, anger and saddness. I really hoped that song wasnt ment to be for me because if it was I had no clue how I was supost to react or how I was gonna react. I stood there motionless as the music slowly faded away and silence took its place. "Pretty Daddy, Pretty!" Brittney said smiling from ear to ear, "Play it again! Play it again!" her voice sounding so sweet and cute yet so demanding. "We should probably let daddy rest from playing the guitar, besides I wanna talk to him privetly for a moment. You draw another picture Ok?" I said as nicely as I could but glaring straight into Johnny's eyes. Nudging my head towards the hallway at Johnny I started to walk towards the door when I head something I never thought I'd hear Brittney say. "Ok Mommy just dont start kissing Daddy cause thats just gross" Brittney's voice soft giggle following after. I stood frozen for the second time now in minutes in the door way. I had no clue why she had said that or if she even knew what it ment. Maybe it was finaly time that I told her that me and Johnny werent together anymore. Picturing her hurt, sad little face in my head from if I said those words to her I knew I couldnt, someone so small and innocent should never feel that kind of pain.

Tag: Johnny Walker
Music: NeverShoutNever
Other: DUN DUN DUNNN